Impermanence…

I like the picture on the left.. =) It fulls of love and care, so peaceful. Can we all humans live like that? Live in harmony and peace… no more war and disputes? I believe, if people around the world are full of wisdom, and see this life deeply, there will be no more war. So.. why is it hard to live in peace and harmony? Why do we always have arguments over little things? I just read an article on Ajahn Brahm’s sermon. I LOVE it! It talked bout harmony in society. Actually the principle behind is not that complicated.. If we can let go OURSELF or our EGO, actually we can create harmony. The thing that usually makes us argue against each other is the view of RIGHT OR WRONG. When we think we are right, and the other person is wrong, then an argument surfaces. There is one question lied here, are we right? We might think that we are right, but is that important? Is it worth it to sacrifice our relationship with someone just becos we think we are right and the other person is wrong? Is it worth it to make other irritated due to this concept of right or wrong? I guess, by letting go our ego to maintain the peace and harmony is more important.

Anger… it can somehow blind us. When we are at the stage of anger with someone, we wont be able to see the things clearly. We wont be able to see the good side of the persons at the moment we are angry. And we do sometimes make ’silly mistakes’ due to this emotion, and somehow it may lead to a breakage of a relationship. Is it worth it? It is true to say that maintaining a relationship is harder than building it… Just simply by a small matter and argument, a long-time-relationship may over. So by overcoming anger, we also can create harmony. But, how? Well.. there is a very sweet poem written by Adolf Hitler (well, you might think he is a bastard, he is a cruel guy, but he does have a good side of him. The proof: the following poem! Read it..)
When your mother is old
When her hearing is weak
When she asks for your hands
Give it to her
Help her
is she asks
Always help if she asks again
Give it to her again
When she asked for your hand give it to her
Help her
If she asks for third time
Please help her with a generous heart
Because the time will come
The terrible time when her mouth will ask no more
When her hand will never be able to reach you again
The terrible time when your mother dies
So be kind
Be generous
Be forgiving to your mother
See, even a ‘cruel’ man like him can write such a sweet thing! So, I believe every person has their own sweet side. Just focus on it and contemplate it. By doing so, we can avoid anger with any body. May all of us live in harmony… (Sadhu. Sadhu, Sadhu)

Geeeeezzz… Im so damn boring!!! Last couple of hours I had a lecture.. but unfortunately, the oht machine was broken .. so we didnt have any overhead… =( So the teacher juz gave a lecture based on the notes… without the oht.. Geez… Couldnt bear it any longer, I slept during the lecture.. heheh Luckily, she finished it earlier.. cos the next topic was more complicated, and it was hard to explain without the projector on… =/ hehehhe I was happy though… =P
Hmmm now doing nothing, playing internet, while waiting for my frenz… =/ We are about to go to my fren’s graduation.. hmm.. when is my turn? hehehhe
gotta go now.. see ya

Geezzzzzzzz… today is my last long weekend!! Tomorrow on gonna be my hell days again…
What have I done during this short break? Well, actually not much… =( I only read mags, watched dvd, well I did do some of my school’s works but not much though… =( Time clicks and keeps clicking.. And soon I will face the FINAL!! oh my goodness!! Time flies!!!
Btw, today is my ‘long-cousin’ bday.. she turns to 21 this year.. Poor her, we didnt make any ’surprise’ to her… Hope she is not that upset (I know she is) Sorry for that, Va!! =) But I believe one day the big smile will be appeared on your face.. hauauh juz wait for it…
Well, this bday thingy makes me think of one thing… Time is always clicking… It will never stop and go back… So we should not waste our time (aka - present being).. We should appreciate every moment we have, and live in the present times. Cos if we still hang around the past and future (not yet happened), we are gonna miss a lot of good times in the present times… Isnt too bad?

ZZzzzZzzz…  Despite the enuf hour of sleeps i had.. I still have the dark circle under my eyes… Poor me… My sleep quality was not that good… blame the dreams for it!!! hehehe These couples of days, my mind was fighting over many thoughts… From study, life, family, and my personal matters… A lot of things in this mind makes my sleep unsound…. Now I m longing for no-dream-sleep…

This year’s autumn in Sydney is a bit warmer… Dunno why this happens.. But frankly, I like it.. ehhe I m a person who dislike coldness… And less rain this year.. hehe thx for it.. =)

Geez… Today I didnt have proper meal, but ate a lot!!! =( Feeling a bit guilty now hehehe… I have put into my stomach some ‘rubbish’.. Imagine, I ate the whole package (oz regular size) of indonesian casava chips (which contains too much fat) so that now my stomach is full with that and makes it bloated… As you know, the feeling is sooo bad… =( I even dont have any appetite to eat other foods… Helpppppp meeeeeeeee =(

That is one of my bad habits… I like to ‘binge’ eat what i call junk foods (in my term, those are chips, fried things, chocolate, biscuits,etc)… Its hard for me to resist those things… hix hix.. Help me, someone!!!

Ever asked why we live? Why should we be born? Why being born as a human, not an animal instead? Is this life fair? Ever crossed into your mind those kinda questions?

I agree with the Buddha.. This life is suffering… I was once sceptical on this view. But now I believe that life is suffering. Then why should we be born then? Yet the Buddha showed us to liberate this suffering, is by breaking the cycle of rebirth. I am aware that not everyone can accept this idea, but I can

If we reflect on this life and the process.. all aspects in this life is impermanent. Simple example is the time.. it always changes, from morning to night, frequently. We ourself do change all the time… From a short child grew to tall grown up, then growing old, and then eventually facing death..

Sometimes, I find it confusing if I want to TOTALLY understand the law of this universe… This may due to my wisdom is not that developed yet.. so if you ask me deeply about this life, I may have none of the answer… ehheheh Even now, Im confusing myself writing this blog.. hauhuaha

Well.. probably the reason why I write this blog is that I juz had my mid test.. heheh So my brain might have gone wrong hauhauhuhahau =D

Look at da pic!! Doesnt she have the good slim body? And every gal in this world wants the shape of that body!! However, I wonder… do guys REALLY like that kinda body? Do they REALLY look for gals with da body??
Many gals concern too much of their bodies, they want a very very slim bodies (if I can say, not slim anymore, but THIN).. and this can lead them to anorexism or bulimism… Is it worth to sacrifice the health of the body for getting a supermodel’s body? Who to be blame here?
In my opinion, there is no need to starve yourselve to get the body.. What it does is to harm the body itself, which means that you dont love and appreciate the body you have. Why cant we humans be satisfied with what we already have? Why should we envy and compare with others? Why dont we just LOVE the way we are?
I have read a book about loving your ownself.. One way to make yourself look beautiful is by loving your ownself. This means that you can accept whatever you are, and forgive yourself for the mistakes you’ve done, and in this case, accept the fact that you are not blessed with the genes (that help you to stay slim all the time).. Why not trying to enjoy this life? Life is much more beautiful if you matter not this ’slim’ idea… +_+

This week… well I can say is like Hell!!! Imagine, tomorrow gonna have a mid test, then the day after have another test plus a report due. On Thurs have an assignment due; the day after have another test again!! Hell more, on Monday Im gonna have a mid test again!! =( Uni life is hell nowwwwwwwww…. S.O.S!!! Help meeeeeeeeeee…………