Impermanence…

Last night I had a chat with my frenz =) We were talking many things about life.  One of our topics was family: how to raise a child! (gees.. do we sound that old?) =P Well.. we all agree that to teach the kids have to be started from the early years. If the foundation of the positive attitudes is strong, then most probably the child’s gonna be a good one… But we also all agree that its not an easy task!

Now.. comparing the past and present condition of childhood behaviour, it changes quite a lot. In our days, we wouldnt be that rebellion, no manner, etc. esp. towards the parents. But now, geez… (shaking my head), small kids will scream at their parents, nagging around, mocking sometimes! What a pity.. I sometimes wonder, why this all happen these days? Is it becos of the changing in lifestyle? Welll…. surely, I have no idea bout it! ^^ Well.. I think i have to hit the sack now… my brain is kinda lagging… so apologise if my writing is a bit confusing lol hehehhe

I just called my fren… =) It lifted my heart, cos Ive been thinking of her in these couple of days… wondering how she is at the moment. Hearing her made me feel relief. She is still the same old her. ^^ Happy for that, she would neva eva easily give up! Yep, I like that spirit. Despite the illness she has, she still can laugh and joke with me! Cheeky her! =)

Well.. she is going to have an op tomorrow, to see whether she needs to take off all the breast, or only the lymph. I hope, the doctor will do the latter.

I feel so sad for her family.. Cant imagine how heavy the burden is… The doctor my friends go to is a TOP doctor, esp in cancer (well, i have his name: Ang Peng Tiam).. and he is so expensiveeee!!! And as u know, for cancer, its a long-term-treatment. U need to go back and forth to the doctor, just for having a chemo or other therapy… But I believe, they can handle all the financial prob! =) I believe, after the rain the sun shines

Okay then… feeling so light now… =) Smile is put on my face atm… ^^

Missing…. My heart is holding that word. Yep.. I miss my friends at the moment… Reading and browsing their friendster, I felt something in my heart… I really want to go there and reach them, chat, laugh with them… Miss the moment we were together…
There are so many things to catch up, my friends… I wish one day we really can spend a good time and have chit chat… I only can wish for the best for you!! For study, work, relationship, etc. Wish I could be with you guys atm!!! Miss ya!!!!

At the moment, what I really wanna do is to read!!! But, dont get me wrong, its not textbooks or lecture notes, but self-motivating books! Or.. I can say sth dealt with Buddhism (body and soul section?)… Hmm yep… I bought a book written by my fav sermoner, Ajahn Brahm. I really enjoy listening to his sermons! He is funny and smart in a way. Actually I have been after this book for so long.. hehe now I can buy it! soo happy now… =)

Now.. i really need to take a break!! I want to read lots lots of books.. GEes… =P Btw, Im so into playing brain game: Sudoku now!:) its challenging… heheh cos of that I didnt pay attention to the lecture this morning.. a bit feeling sorry though… but let bygone b bygone…

Kay then.. enuf for today.. so tired, after finished working… Tonight is a long night…

Gosh… my body calls for a break during these busy days… My energy is drained out =( I just had my mid tests on 2 consecutive days.. Yesterday’s test was not bad, I couldnt expect much either, cos I didnt spend much time in studying though. But today’s one is worse cos I didnt study (only scanned thru the lecture notes, not even tried to understand all!). When I looked at the paper, I was thinking that I should have read thoroughly all the lectures! The questions actually were not that hard, I just didnt imagine that my lecturer will make such questions! Yet, I didnt leave any question blank, and my lecturer will count 10 out 11 best marks, so… now I will wait for my luck.

I am now really into books! I’m longing for a break just to go to a bookshop! ehhehe ^^ I’m planning to spend a day in a bookshop, maybe at Borders @ Bondi junction/city… hehe I like borders, cos they have Gloria Jeans plus CDs and I love musicccc ^^

I just watched this movie on Sunday. Frankly speaking, when I watched it I got gooesebumps. I never saw such a ‘cruel’ scene (they didnt show you how they killed the pple, but seeing lots of corps around made me goosebump). I mean, neva ever crossed in my mind that pple can hate each other like that. This movie is based on a true stroy, years back in Africa. Its about a war between 2 races, Tutsi and Hutu. This movie reminds me of the thing happened years back ( I think its about the same time with this one) in my country. It happened not at my town anyway, it happened in Ambon,there was a race war as well. So sad knowing this… hatred was around the community. I wonder, why difference can make such a thing? Are we humans different? I think we are not. Well, we have different skin colors, complexions, etc. But we all have 2 eyes, one nose, two ears, 2 hands, 2 legs, and many to mention. Then… do we have to be separated becos the difference we can notice easily ( I mean like skin color and so forth)…

But in this movie, it made me proud of this guy, his name is Paul Rosesabagina(WEll correct me if im wrong, i have poor memory in memorising names). He tried his best to save the lifes of those people (the ones that are about to be slaughtered due to their race). And it also showed that pple are easily bribed (what a poor thing to know). I think humans tend to be so money-minded? I think its also the nature of humans: Greed! I also have this, but trying to decrease the level of if i can, eliminate it. Well, maybe it will take time. But, as my motto say: Patient is the key!

Anyway, this movie is so recommended!

This morning, I heard that the Mandala Airlines failed to take off successfully. It stroke off the ground and killed 114 pple (that is the number so far i know). Well, luckily my house and frens are not nearby, so there wont be any person I know would be hurt. However, I feel so sorry for the loss as well, esp for those who have been left by their beloved ones. My town’s current and former governors both were assumed to be dead. Cos until now their bodies havent been found… Even though I dont have any special feeling on them, well, I also feel sorry for their families.

From this sad news, we can see that life is unpredictable. Who will foresee that the plane will land on the wrong place? Who will predict that the current governor will leave the world before his period over?

And also I think that Indo has never-ending-problem? After tsuname, earthquake came, then this one. I dont know why Indo becomes like this…
Well, not only Indo who is in blue at the moment. U.S. also encounter such a big loss atm. In New Orleands, there was a tsunami, Katrina they called it. It took a lot of material and life loss… The world is in such a big grave.. may all this sadness be gone, may all people find happiness and peace… Sadhu, sadhu, sadhu