Impermanence…

Just finished watching this movie, acted by Andy Lau. Must admit here that he is a good actor! ^^ Even the story really doesnt make sense, but the messege it sends thru is very deep, indeed. Cried during the last part though, cos its the time when the ’sun shines’.

What I get from this movie is that we cant turn back time.. What has done is done. Yet, the future is about to come, and it is unpredictable. So, instead of running away from what u’ve done in the past (denial mechanism, cos of guilt in yourself), you can simply make it better by taking an action. Do something to fix it. Future is full of hope.

Other messege that I can get too is that, what you think wouldnt always be true. You need to see from the person’s glasses. Dont simply conclude thing based on what you think, need to analyse it first.

Hmm last but not least: Time! We need to cherish the time we spend now. You would never noe what’s gonna happen next. So cherish the moment you are having now, and let pple noe how you feel about them, so you wouldnt regret later in the future. ^^ Time is actually precious.

One quote I really like (well this is unrelated to the movie though) is The key of being happy is to like what you are doing, not to do what you like.

ALWAYS HAPPY PPLE!!

Dunno why, this morning when I woke up, suddenly I felt like I miss my home. Neva did I encounter such a feeling before (well I did miss my home quite a few times but neva this deep)… Yesterday evening, I also missed home, thought I would be at my dad’s shop helping him out during that time, and usually during that time is the quiet time for us (which means we can be more relaxed, cos early in the morning, the situation is so hectic, so many customers to deal with, and this can make my dad’s temper bad…) When I thought so, I really wished I was still there… with my parents and family….

You know, I really love my dad and mom, and my brothers too… Sometimes its just so hard being apart, but Ive been living like this for ages.. and I feel no regrets though, cos I chose this path myself… However, in my heart they would always be there….

Love you mom, dad, and bros! Happy always!

I’ve been watching a sad series, 1 litre of tears. It tells about a girl having a disease, spinocerebellar atrophy. before watching this movie, I never heard of this name before, maybe because its quite a rare case, so its not ‘popular’. Thanks to my doctor-will-be friend, he explained why this disease could appear. I did check from the net too, and read the description of the disease, but didnt find whats the cause behind. Well, according to my dear friend, he said this disease is a genetical one, due to the huge copies of CAG (triplet) genes in the system. So blame the DNA for it!

Below is the lyrics of the song

In the shore across the sadness

It’s said that a smile is there

And when we arrive there

What will wait us there?

It’s not for running away

It’s to chase the dream

Should have gone to a trip

On that far summer day

If only I can see tomorrow

Then I will not breathe a sigh

Like a boat sailing against the stream

Now, you must go forward

If the rain clouds disappear

Shall the wet road shine

Only the darkness will tell me

The strong strong light

Strongly, go forward!

Then, a question popped up in my mind: what will I do if Im at her position? Will I accept it gratefully or will I be down and close the doors of the world outside me? I might not have the answer right now, but one thing I know for sure, no matter who we are, all of us will surely one day die… So its just a matter of time. Death is certain will encounter all of us….

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This morning I got a text from my brother. He only texted me a short and brief message, telling that he has passed his ‘meja hijau’ (so-called-thesis presentation) with grade B! Indeed, neva did I expect him to get that high! Hoho, frankly, I was afraid he couldnt make it, but he did! Oh gosh, was so excited to know this thing! ^^

After waking up, I went to jog for 30 minutes. From now on, healthy lifestyle should be my new habbit. I said it habbit, cos I want to do it constantly… hehe I have several reasons behind this, but on top of those, I want to improve my health! Yep, quite worry about my health lately, so rather than thinking and worrying it, I try to do something instead.

Okay then… hope all of you enjoy your day! Life is beuatiful if you see it in a special way…

Currently typing in Sydney. The weather is so nice, not so hot anymore. I can feel the fresh breeze, it feels so nice. I dont like extreme weather, like summer (too hot) and winter (too cold). And funny thing is that the weather can influence people’s moods. So funny, cos why should this external condition can affect us? Hm… indeed, we are not perfect yet.

I feel so happy and warm going back to my lovely hometown, spent my time with my family. I am a family-kinda-gal. I put my family on top of my list. Yep, they mean a lot to me. Being apart from my brother makes me realise how much we love each other. When I was living close to him, we quarrel a lot. But when I went back, we did not have any single one. We could chat a lot of stuff. I like that feeling Missing him now. Too bad, I didnt have a chance to meet with my eldest brother, since he is attached to his uni stuff. However, my heart will always pray for his best!

I talked a lot about my childhood moments and the ‘past’ of my family with my mom. Neva did I realise that my mom bearing pains during the early years of her marriage. Yet she managed all of them well and by herself! I am so proud of her! Really, I just realised that my mom is such a strong woman! And assuring me that she is a wise person. |’m so glad to have such mom. I can chat and laugh out loud with my mom (we sometimes are like friends, not parent and child ), but not with my dad. I really wish I also can treat him just like I do with my mom, but I failed. Frankly, I feel a lil bit ‘frightened’ with him. My dad’s temper is not really okay. If he is under stress, he can yell at people, even though they are innocent.  Yet, while he talks, people from a mile away can hear him. hehe.. My dad’s family has this kinda ‘trend’: speak so loud! hehe so even he is not mad, his voice is so loud (maybe I also inherit this) =P

O yeah, one more thing: my mom told me about my dad&mom story (the time when they ‘went out’) Apparently, my dad neva asked my mom to be his girlfriend, they just ‘dated’. However he indeed proposed to my mom to marry him. hehehe… What a shy guy my dad was!

Okay then, need to unpack now…. ttyl!