Impermanence…

This time, I have to let go my mobile. dont think I wud get it back =) Its alright… was my fault afterall… =P Have to learn from my mistake: be more aware of my actions!!

Kay.. want to jot down a thought now. I think, love is a choice, its not blind afterall. Pple are not blind by the love itself, cos they KNOW whats going on, its just that they keep ignoring whats the head telling, sorta like the emotions have fogged the brain.. Well, fair enuf. Then why did i say its a choice? Cos I think, you can choose whether to follow your thought or .. ur desire… Up to you.. Yet I find so many people entrapped in situation where she/he is suffered cos of the ‘love’ feeling, well what I mean here is that he/she ‘uncosciously’ know that he/she is ‘abused’ or taken advantage of his/her partner, but still want to be in the relationship. Funny, isnt it? Well, like many people say, I neva fall in love, that is why can say that. But, I reckon people are entangled in such situation is just too attached to the feeling, dont want to let go of the feeling. Want to keep feeling the ‘loveness’… However, there is no such permanence in this world, even though the feeling. So why is it so important to be attached to the feeling, then makes you suffer? Hmm…. life is life…

Hoho dunno if you get what I typed here.. haha cos sometimes its hard for me to put into words what I thought… hopefully u can get what my idea is…

Hmm strange things sometimes happen. This time is about losing mobiles. It started from my cousin, she left her mobile in a karaoke room, then turned to me where i left it in a toilet, and now: my friend (Devon) who left hers in a cab!! Gosh.. is it a kinda chain reaction? People arnd me keep losing their mobiles!! Hmm so my other close friends: be aware! keep your mobiles close to you all the time! hahaha Funny somehow when I think about it…

As u know, the oldies would say: Take a shower with flower water, to keep away the bad things… hahaha

Today is my last holiday… hiks… still want for more….

Today i went to Easter Show with my friends and relative. Well.. was quite fun except my mobile part. When I went to ladies, I left my mobile inside… When I realised it not long after, it was gone I asked my friends and cousin to ring my number, but no one picked it up. There was one picked it up at the first time, but then was disconnected after a couple of unmeaningful voice…

Luckily, tonight a guy calling my friend’s number. Apparently he is the father of the girl who found mine! He asked me my address to send my mobile back.. Thank God!! ^^ Hopefully I would get my mobile soon… well, let’s say in a week… Appreciate them sooo much!!

Its always been easy to say to others who is heart broken, or is in sorrow, to tell them: "Let go off it…" Easier to say than done. Indeed. Yet, if we analyse more, its true. If you want to be healed from your wound, you need to let go. Simple words: let go, but hard to do. Why? Why is it hard?
Well, guess people like to cling on the things they have done or had. They tend to cling on the past, if the past ruined, they feel like the whole of their life is also ruined. But its not the truth! Past is past, now is now, future is still unfold. So future is still a mystery… it can be bad or good. Yet, ironically since the future is still unpredictable, people are afraid of taking a chance or a risk.

Its amazing to read great people’s life story. They are people who are not afraid of the risks they might have in future.. they are risk takers. Life is a risky game, indeed. So my point is, if you have done a mistake, dont be afraid to take a chance to fix it. You have 50:50 chance to have it fixed, well on the other hand you also have probability to make it worse. =P Its just a choice.

One more thing I would like to add. Heart wounds. Its so hard to forgive people, yep I know. And the medicine to heal it just simple. Let it go, and open you heart. But saying is easier than done, again. That is why time is the friend then, it helps you gradually let go of the past and be able to forgive.

Soooo for someone out there who is broken and apart, dont perish. Future is still be told, you might see the light on the front roads, never lose your spirits!! And by loving, you also forgive.

[Dedicated to someone who is in pain and angry, and cant let go the person they are angry with]

Waking up this morning with a weird feeling, got it from the dream I just had. Its a weird dream. My dream is like this: I’m having a nice dinner with my family (so the setting is in my hometown: Nias),there were my mom, dad, brothers, and some other pple which i coulndt recall. We ate outside, well sorta like a veranda. Yet the strange thing is that the air temperature outside was -2 centrigade!! Weird, huh? Minus in tropical place… and we had a very strong wind blowing in… I could feel the cold breeze though… Hmmm.. another strange thing is that I felt warm inside the house… Hmm dream is just a dream, sometimes its unexplainable… I just hope this dream is meaningless.. so my family up there is just alright…

I read the paper today. It was on the headline. I saw two big pictures of lil poor girls, suffering from malnutrition and a hole in her heart wall. They both are still young. Looking at their picture makes me feel so sad. Indeed, out there, far from here, there are lots of pple like them.. suffering from poor nutrients and poor health condition, and they are so helpless. Cant do much, only can wait for others’ hands.. What a pity!!! We here have heaps and abundant of foods around, even i can say that now, more and more pple are overnourished!! Well.. yet despite the increase of overnourished pple there are still heaps of them suffered due to lack of foods available. African land is so arid to plant any vegetation, and the climate is getting drier. No rain falls…. no irrigation… dry and hot climate! Poor sanitation… How pity!!

I wish, there are lots of pple with more generousity to give them a hand. Tiny of help would be like angel for them… And I also wish the social organisation can gain more and more donator to pay more attention on this issue.. and hopefully there is no fraud in the organisation system…

I feel so greatful and thankful of what i have now. There are still a lot more people who are suffering a lot more than I do… Sabbe satta bhavantu sukkitata…