Impermanence…

Okay… I just got a Buddha picture from LCT, and I love it, it gives me some peaceful feeling. I wonder, will Christians feel the same way as they see Jesus picture.
Lemme show the Buddha picture I meant:

I dont know if the picture effect would be universal, or would be exclusive to Buddhist…. O well, maybe the latter would be more justifying, since I dont always feel peaceful if I see Jesus or other prophets pictures……

Okay… actually, Im currently bored with my assignment. That is why I turn to this blog writing. Since, I just randomly write this entry, I would randomly pick an article to write… hahahhaha (now my head is too occupied with all those assgts!!)
My choice falls to Reader’s Digest Health mini-mag bonus; its about FOOD AND DIET (my favorite topic!!)

• Tomatoes may block the effects of enviromental toxins. They contain a compound called chlorogenic acid, which may help guard against cancer by blocking the effects of nitrosamins, which are cancer-causing compounds in tobacco smoke and also in cured meat.

• Garlic is an edible antibiotic. It contains compounds that act as powerful natural antibacterial, antiviral, and antifungal agents. It has been shown to inhibit the fungi that cause athlete’s foot, vaginal yeast infections, and many cases of ear infection, and may be as effective against certain fungi as antifungal medication.
• Many soy products are high in iron (yey, for vegos!), one of the body’s essential minerals, but it may not be well absorbed. Improve your iron absorption by adding foods high in vitamin C to your meals, such as orange juice, tomatoes, capsicums, strawberries, or melons.
• One reason that soft drinks are linked to obesity may be because they are often consumed with fast foods that are loaded with fat. The sugar in the soft drink activates the pancreas to produce insulin, but insulin also tells the body to store fat. So, as the pancreas is feeling the effects of the soft drink, the hamburger and fries arrive, and since the body has more insulin than it needs for the meal, it stores the fat instead of burning it.

Okay folks, thats it for today… hahah gotta continue to my work. Hope the tips would be helpful

Last week I was kinda battling within myself. I call it mental war. For you who meet me most of the time would realised that I looked so drained out lately, u could see the obvious dark circles around my eyes. Well, not because I slept less, but MY MIND harldy slept. I was struggling with my own self.

I find it hard to explain in simple way. Well, let me try to do it though. I found it hard to accept myself as what it is. Let me repeat: I hardly accept myself as it is. There are some of my own quality that I dont like, and worse, I want to change and get rid off it. Dont get me wrong…. it is not wrong at all to change yourself. It’s the process that matters. I wasnt at peace with myself. I was fighting against it. And it drained me out, didnt give me any benefits at all….Seriously.

Just now I heard a dharma talk by Ajahn Brahm. What he said actually opened my eyes. I was questioning myself and got no answer these past few days. Why did I fall that deep? Why I felt so drained out despite the enough rest? Why wasnt I happy? Why? Why? Why????

Having listened to it, I realised that I wasnt at peace with myself. I should’ve forgiven myself more, should accept it as what it is. Well, I wasnt born to be good-at-everything person. And I have to accept that. I was just being too hard on myself. I didnt really look after it very well and nourish it with love.

Ajahn Brahm mentioned that sometimes we want to get rid off something in part of our life because we dont like it. But, what if it is the ‘essential’ part of our life to see the truth (in a right way)? It really opened my eyes. Yeah, maybe instead of rejecting or fighting against it, I should have just used it and contemplate it and see how it is as what it is. Well, I bet most of you would find my previous line confusing. I dont wanna explain further, cos dun think everyone would get it anyway. But I said that in a Buddist term. For simplicity, you guys can just ignore that sentence. I wrote it merely to pour out my thoughts….
There is a metaphor of the thing I just said. We can analogise the thing you dont like as ‘dog poo’. People ‘normally’ would simply throw away the poo. But, instead of doing such, why dont we use the poo as a fertiliser in our garden? Why dont we make the most out of it?

Now, I just wanna be at peace with LIFE….

Btw, Happy Mother’s Day!!