Impermanence…

Yesterday I heard of the shocking news from my friend. It said that my high school friend, Verona, has passed away….. It is shocking and sad news indeed. I cant say that I was close to her during high school, but we had good talks and laughs in the past though….. I still can reminisce her bubbly character, her smile is still clearly pictured in my memory. Yet I still have no idea what the reason of her leaving is….

Death…………
It can come any time it wants, with or without our readiness. Knowing that one of my friends has left this life for good was another eye-opener that life indeed is precious, that we dont know when we are going to leave this life. Having said that, I reckon we should cherish the moment we are having at the moment, before regrets visit our soul.

May you R.I.P., Ver…….. I wish the family can cope with this grief….

Remember on the previous entry I said that I wished I could meet Dalai Lama?? Well, my wish was granted!!!! I was in cloud nine when I could sign off after working for 3 hours!! Geez!!! Despite the pouring weather, I managed to walk from Darling Harbour to Domain (ard Martin Place)… Indeed, it wasnt a pleasant weather…. it was wet and cold, but everything was paid off.

Dalai Lama is so lovable, he is cute!!! ^________^ I like his humility, he is such an inspiration. Even though the talk I heard wasnt so profound (in terms of Buddhist teaching), I still enjoyed it. I think, I was so lucky could have seen him (even though from a distance). It’s such a rare condition to be able to see him I think considering his age now.

Well, I took that picture using my phone camera. So yeah, the quality aint that good. Anyway, it was estimated that there were 3000 people standing on the Domain that day.

He gave free talk on Friday and Saturday. I only went on Friday because I didnt feel so well on Saturday, so decided to sleep longer (and because of that I had to cancel my shift…. I feel sorry though for doing tat, but I put my health before anything else). At Saturday dawn, the weather was so crazy. I could hear the blundering sound of the wind, the rain fell cats and dogs. Seriously, it was a gloomy weather, you could hardly see the sun. But surprisingly, just a moment before he began his talk (ard 9 am), the rain subsided and the wind calmed. The clouds slowly shed and let the sun pour its shines to Sydney. Amazing! Then after he finished, the weather began to show its rage again… the clouds started to cover the sunshines, the wind blew hard, and the sky began to cry again. I was so amazed by this phenomenon. Actually, Im not that surprised, kinda expected it to happen though.

Anyway, I still feel so lucky to be able to go to Domain in time!!!! ^________^

*Sigh* I wish we all can have our wish come true. I have another wish aint granted. I really really wish to go to the (Free) Dalai Lama Talk on tomorrow and Saturday. But too bad, I cant make it to be there…. I’m bound with responsibility to work on both days, and my shifts are clashed w the talk schedule… *Sigh*

To be honest, I feel kinda sad though. Coz I think this is a rare opportunity. I tried to console myself, and it worked for some time, but not always. Deep inside of me, I still want that!! Is that my attachment? Maybe……… I have to let it go…………

Anyway, for those who would be there… Please, cherish your moment there!!! You guys are the lucky bunch, and should appreciate it!!! JIA YO!!! For UNIBUDS folks, please collect funds as much as u can!!! I’d send you a moral support from Sydney Convention Center!!!!

O well, I just read an article written in a newspaper. Its about a survey of babies’ names in UK. Apparently, Mohammed (with different but similar spelling taken into consideration) is on the 2nd top, right behind Jack!!! Funny thing is that my tutor’s name is also Mohammed!! So yeah… I find it funny when I read this article. LOL My tutor’s name is soo common in UK!!! ^______^

Have you ever had such question in your mind but you cant pour it out loud? Well, I do, for sometimes. The reasons being might be because I wanna protect the person’s feelings, or I just simply cant bluntly ask because its not the culture. O well, you might get confused why I say this…. Actually I now have a silent question. I cant spell it out.. because I dont know where and how to start. Maybe one of the reasons is that the person I wanna ask to is not open about this matter to me (and my brothers?). Its just not the culture in our family to talk about this issue. Since young, my parents never talk about this issue openly to us. So yeah… I find it hard to question about that.

But on the other hand, I do want to know the exact condition (sorry you might find it confusing to follow my entry, but Im not ready to reveal the issue here). I wanna know if its getting worse or better, so I know how to put myself in.

Bottling up aint a nice thing………………